Secrets

All my tomorrows could hinge on this.
I want...no, I need, all my tomorrows to be filled with you.
I am so frightened of the what if's.
You say it to me when we are together, and yet, I am so afraid that it will be you, who will leave me...and not the other way around.
I will never tell you that.
Anyway....you have to be with someone in the first place to leave them....so technically speaking, it can't really happen.
I still wonder why you wouldn't answer my question. The one that led me to remove myself from you for a little while.
Withdrawing for a moment into one of my vices.
Peace. Protection.
Numb.
I was frightened of making you angry...so I left it.
Today...I remembered that you never answered.
Do you have something to hide.........that will lead to me getting hurt...
I am resisting pulling up the drawbridge.
That's how much, I want you.