Green

Past experience breeds current behaviours.
Experience tells me to watch carefully.
Watching carefully can be defined as paranoia.
I'm trying not to let this get out of hand.
But it's hard.
Because it happened once before...so it could happen again.

Missing

The day you left me, you bought me a can of diet coke.
Like you did every day.
It's still on my desk.
It's two years old.
I started drinking on a school night.

Twitter

My secret is out.
My nerves are in shreds.
How can I tell you that I'm terrified a better me will come along?
How can I tell you that I'm convinced you use your networks to prowel and select?
All because I'm sure, I'm just not good enough.
And that's why it didn't happen.

The problem, is all mine...

I can't tell you that I wonder what she has that I don't.

Shhhh....

I'm all caught up inside my secret.
And my secret is so special.
I want to shout it from the rooftops.
But I know that would be certain suicide.
My secret makes me happy.
My secret keeps me safe.
My secret is you.

Words

I just found something that was probably never meant for me to read.
But now that I have my heart is bleeding.

Sunshine

Today the sun cracked the pavements.
And smiles cracked my lips.
As tears ran down my cheeks.
Finally, I found it.
The thing I've been looking for all this time.
We will have our ups and downs...our wobbles...but we'll get through it.
That's what he said.
And, for once, I'm going to believe it.
Not question it.
Everything has changed.